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[Feb. 1st, 2009|11:21 pm] |
the artist formerly known as "smilljith" is now "quinbetweeny"
so, like, add me! |
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[Feb. 1st, 2009|02:30 am] |
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the internet knows me as "smilljith".
SUCH a fantastic nickname/username... but it doesn't work for me anymore.
"quinsmith" is overly common, so that's out
"sminquith" or "quinbetweeny" are what i've come up with so far.
got ideas? thoughts? random words to make me laugh? |
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[Jan. 31st, 2009|03:24 am] |
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the child that lives above me, is screaming crying.
what i assume to be an adult female, possibly the child's mother, is yelling.
YAY DOMESTIC FUN AT 3:30 AM!!
not that i'm sleeping...
i'd just like some quiet.
HA! like my mind ever shuts up on its own.
i lie awake, staring at this screen, til pills kick in.
i WANT to be more productive...
yet, i have absolutely NO ambition.
someone shoot me. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2009|08:24 pm] |
HEY J-ROD...
JEALOUS?? |
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[Jan. 26th, 2009|07:57 pm] |
Dearest people that REFUSE to call me Quin,
if you purposely call me my birth name, because you're angry with me, or you're an ignorant twat, i'll be forced to paper cut your eyelids, and between your fingers and toes.
no love,
Quin Smith |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2009|11:39 pm] |
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Dante has HORRIBLE breath!
he nuzzled into my chest, and breathed at me.
i hope its normal bad cat breath.
i don't think i could handle more stress right now.
do they make kitty breath mints? |
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[Jan. 19th, 2009|02:39 pm] |
Quintin Rhys Smith
thoughts?
p.s. Rhys = Reece |
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[Jan. 15th, 2009|09:29 pm] |
i laugh when things go badly for people that dislike me.
yep, i'm a dick. |
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[Jan. 14th, 2009|07:45 pm] |
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the people that live above me are constantly dropping bowling balls. at least that's what it sounds like. i jump, out of fright, and then glare at the ceiling. i'm super tough |
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[Jan. 12th, 2009|08:02 pm] |
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because i didn't want to store her crap,
look after her rat,
and move her, AGAIN,
my "best friend" isn't talking to me.
its NOT my fault that she waited until the last minute.
that she just expected me to jump in and solve her problems.
i warned her that i might not be around.
i didn't wait until the day of, to tell her i wasn't going to be able to help.
i just did NOT have the strength, so i let her know.
that was over two weeks ago.
she's told her girlfriend that i'm selfish, and only friends with her when its convenient for me.
funny, i used to hear from her when she needed to do laundry, her internet was down, or something was upsetting her.
when i say "no" to her, or i stand up for myself... she disowns me.
i'm tired of it.
i need to move on. |
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[Jan. 11th, 2009|09:34 pm] |
all i've done is sleep, craft, eat cereal, play video games, watch "LOST", and sleep more, since the new year started.
i'm tired of depression, and hermit-like behaviors.
i need some magic |
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[Jan. 4th, 2009|12:47 am] |
Quin Danger Smith.... thoughts?
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[Jan. 3rd, 2009|07:54 am] |
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my sleep schedule is very backwards right now.
i sorta fixed my hair.
its much less "chemo-chic".
i don't mean that in a hurtful way. the chemo talk that is. i just remember when my grandma was in remission... her hair came in rather patchy. man she had some BITCHIN' GREAT wigs though. i miss her |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2009|07:22 am] |
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i was feeling the need for a change, so i cut my hair.
i should have waited for a better mood.
i look like i'm partially through a round of chemo.
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[Dec. 26th, 2008|04:23 am] |
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waiting for my medication to bring on coma time.
my extended family attempted to call me Quin today.
some have stuck with my nickname, Bean.
i'm smiling! |
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[Dec. 24th, 2008|01:05 am] |
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i've been thinking about transition, A LOT, and if i feel like its what i want/need.
i'm really, very confused. worse yet, i don't know HOW to talk to anyone about it.
i'm scared i'll offend them.
that they'll think i'm a "poser" or a "wannabe"
i need a haircut!
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[Dec. 23rd, 2008|01:53 am] |
i'm having an identity crisis. of course i am. UGH
i'm home for the holidays, and no one seems to be able to remember to call me Quin. i understand its difficult to change what you've been calling someone for as long as 25 years. i'm VERY understanding of that. i've accepted apologies with smiles, and laughs. even when some have basically said "i'm never going to get this right, i'm sticking with <insert birth name here>". i don't know how else to react. i mean, i don't want to seem like an ass. i certainly don't want conflict. *sigh*
i shoulda been a sea horse.
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[Dec. 4th, 2008|01:48 pm] |
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mom and i talked about name changing again. she seems pretty down with the birthday = new name, idea. i think we're going to sit down and come up with names that go with Quin. anyone have any ideas? male, or female, or gender neutral are all up for discussion. so, DISCUSS! :)
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[Dec. 4th, 2008|01:52 am] |
2028
went to trivia night at a local pub with my mom. our team came in second. YAY US!
i'm officially tired of questions about crabs. OH, and i'm terrified at the thought of an 18ft crab. NOT HAPPY
mom's taken over my bed for the night. i can hear her snoring from rooms away. aw catemom!
tomorrow, there will be talk of christmas lists!!!!
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[Dec. 2nd, 2008|03:02 am] |
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a huge wave of emotion JUST hit me. i feel like i could cry at any moment. i hate the vulnerable feeling. its terrifying. |
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